[072] A Blue and White Plaid Easter

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First of all, remember last week when I tried to make pound cake and failed epically? Well yesterday I was successful! Take that, baking.

In my family Easter isn’t really an important holiday. We aren’t usually all together like we are at Christmas, but this year it’s a little different. My Babcia (bob-cha) and Dziadzia (ja-ja), or grandparents, are moving out of the house they’ve been living in for over 40 years. This move required some pitching in from all their children, my mother, her 3 brothers, and their families, and it’s happening this coming week. Everyone is flocking to Buffalo, NY, except for me.

With my new job, and the amount a plane ticket costs, I couldn’t make the trip. All my cousins, second cousins, aunts and uncles, mother, father, sister, and dog are going to be there. At first it made me pretty sad that I’d be missing out, especially since this week I was bombarded with “missing my family” emotions. But then I remembered that I would be seeing most of them in June when I head home to Syracuse for my sister’s high school graduation. Plus the weather in Seattle is SO much nicer than it will be in Buffalo. Plus I have my aunt and little cousin to spend the day with. I even got my very own Easter basket! I think it’s time for me to start letting go of the notion that all the holidays are going to be the same with me living on the West Coast. They aren’t, but that’s totally ok. It just means that I need to mentally adjust, and enjoy everything and everyone that I have over here. I’m not sure I’ll ever be able to let go of spending Christmas with my family, but I can totally afford at least one, long trip home each year.

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[071] Mind Reading

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Just now, at age 24, I’m starting to date, which I’ve never had to do before. I hate it.

It’s not that I mind putting myself out there with the possibility of being rejected, because I don’t, but it’s more about not being able to read people and tell if it’s going well. I’ve been on multiple dates with a couple people, that I thought went well, so I waited for a text or call or something that never came. If I like someone, or I think there’s some sort of possibility for something, then I’ll text or call them. I don’t always wait for the other person to communicate, but then I feel stupid for a little bit if I hear nothing back.

That actually doesn’t bother me that much anyway, because there hasn’t been a single person who I was exceptionally upset to not hear from. I’m pretty secure in what a catch I am, and I’m not really searching for a relationship right now, so it’s honestly no big deal. Part of me wishes I could read minds though. If I could, I wouldn’t have to ask a bunch of questions in order to come to the conclusion that this guy doesn’t want the same things, and I’m just wasting my time with some frat-type boy who just wants to get drunk. If he’s really cute, I’ll tolerate it for a bit, and then move on.

But most of all, I hate when guys think I’m naive and will believe everything they’re telling me. Some things aren’t important enough to question, but all I know is that sometimes I get this gut feeling that something is off and when I go with that feeling I’m rarely disappointed. At this point I expect the worst and am pleasantly surprised if it’s anything but horrible. The best part about dating is that I’ve been getting a lot of free meals and drinks. I really don’t know why it’s so hard to find someone that has an amazing job, a good family, a nice body, is caring and appreciative, has morals, passions, and that really, genuinely likes me. That doesn’t seem like a lot to ask for.

– Stephanie

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[070] Finally Friday

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I’m not sure this happens to everyone, but you know when you feel like crap, and also feel like you look like crap? But then you put on your favorite perfume and everything is better? That was me today.

This weekend is supposed to be gorgeous so that will make me feel a little bit better about not getting to be with ALL of my family in Buffalo for Easter.

 

– Stephanie

 

P.S. I took this picture while I was lying down on a bench swing.

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[068] Workaholic

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I was busy all day, and it was wonderful. I’m sure you’ll hear something different from me in the near future, but for now this is what I’m going with. The sun made an appearance at some point this morning, and then vanished. I enjoyed a nice long almost 2 hour workout since I skipped yesterday. I’m feeling it now, but I’ll eat up and go to bed early.

 

– Stephanie

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[066] Busted Bundt

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I’ve been debating which pound cake recipe I wanted to try, and I finally got it down to two: one made with cream cheese and one without. Well yesterday when I went to make this pound cake, I realized I didn’t have cream cheese. This made my decision very easy. I’ve never made pound cake before but it all seemed pretty straight forward. You know when you try a recipe for the first time and you’re not exactly sure how it’s supposed to turn out, but when you do it perfectly you know it’s right? Well that happened with this pound cake batter. It was beautiful and creamy and smooth and probably could not have turned out more perfectly.

As you can see I had a post all ready talking about pound cake, but it was an epic failure so screw it. Today was beautiful outside, sunny and 60 all day, and I spent it in my office. Someone told me to stop smiling and I told him I couldn’t because it was sunny out, and that is the truth.

Also this picture is from yesterday since today I spent all day inside.

– Stephanie

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[065] Special Events

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I like having a routine on a daily basis. Right now my weekly routine consists of waking up, going to work, going to the gym, updating my blog when I get home, eat, watch tv or read, and go to sleep. As thrilling as that routine is, I need special activities to break up the monotony. I like planning a buch of meals and going grocery shopping, taking 20 minutes at the end of the night to use a beauty mask, or writing a long email to a friend. Those may not really sound all that special, but it helps break up the routine that is my life.

Today I decided to add a new ‘special event’ to my week: a walk in the woods. Now, by woods I don’t at all mean the wilderness. There’s a trail that goes through a patch of protected woods right by my house all the way down to Lake Washington. Round trip it takes me less than an hour, but that’s going to serve as time for me to reflect on whatever. I’m sure there will be recurring themes, but every week brings its own challenges and this will give me a chance to work through them without distractions. Today I took my iPhone because I wanted to take pictures, but next week all electronics will be left at home.

I’m not a religious person but I absolutely believe in self-reflection. If you don’t take time to think for yourself, about yourself, without any outside influences, there’s no way you’re going to know what you want out of life. Taking this big step, and moving across the country, has made me realize how many possibilities there are for me, both personally and professionally. This move has given me a lot to take in, and without setting aside this reflecting time, I would feel completely overwhelmed. Instead I’m just whelmed. I’ve realized that I don’t have to figure everything out right away; the sense of surprise is a little exhilarating, and it’s starting to grow on me.

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– Stephanie

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[064] Time Spent with Myself is Always Time Well Spent

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So for those of you who don’t know me that well, or those of you who think you know me, I’m going to tell you something about myself: I love my alone time.

I’m super comfortable being by myself, and sometimes I actually prefer it. You might be thinking, “Dang, this girl must get lonely,” but you would be wrong. Just because I enjoy being by myself on a regular basis doesn’t even remotely mean that I’m lonely, or antisocial. At times I get lonely, but that isn’t on a regular basis and as of late it’s usually because I miss my family. I socialize with people at work all day, which isn’t real life human interaction because it’s at work, but I do go out and hang with other people. I like to think that I’m very independent so if the world ends and I’m the last person alive, I could totally make it on my own physically and mentally, as long as grocery stores and memory foam mattresses didn’t all vanish when the world ended.

Not at all related to what I said above, but today I bought a TON of stuff for making linoleum prints. I’m really excited to get back into it, and make some pretty stuff. I was even thinking about opening up an Etsy shop, but I don’t even know if people would buy it, and I just bought my supplies soooo I guess I have some time to think about it.

– Stephanie

P.S. When I have a good hair day, like I did today, I take A LOT of pictures of myself.

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[063] Happy Hours

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Today is Friday…thank goodness! This morning it snowed and I may have gone outside with just my winter coat and slippers on immediately after getting out of the shower. I got super excited to see the falling flakes. I guess I didn’t realize how much I missed the snow. I’ve been saying how much I like not having to deal with brushing my car off every morning.  By the time I got to work, it had turned into a mix of snow and rain but I didn’t hate seeing it this morning.

I went out with a friend after work for drinksies and food. Kind of the perfect way to end the week, and start the weekend!

– Stephanie

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