Just now, at age 24, I’m starting to date, which I’ve never had to do before. I hate it.
It’s not that I mind putting myself out there with the possibility of being rejected, because I don’t, but it’s more about not being able to read people and tell if it’s going well. I’ve been on multiple dates with a couple people, that I thought went well, so I waited for a text or call or something that never came. If I like someone, or I think there’s some sort of possibility for something, then I’ll text or call them. I don’t always wait for the other person to communicate, but then I feel stupid for a little bit if I hear nothing back.
That actually doesn’t bother me that much anyway, because there hasn’t been a single person who I was exceptionally upset to not hear from. I’m pretty secure in what a catch I am, and I’m not really searching for a relationship right now, so it’s honestly no big deal. Part of me wishes I could read minds though. If I could, I wouldn’t have to ask a bunch of questions in order to come to the conclusion that this guy doesn’t want the same things, and I’m just wasting my time with some frat-type boy who just wants to get drunk. If he’s really cute, I’ll tolerate it for a bit, and then move on.
But most of all, I hate when guys think I’m naive and will believe everything they’re telling me. Some things aren’t important enough to question, but all I know is that sometimes I get this gut feeling that something is off and when I go with that feeling I’m rarely disappointed. At this point I expect the worst and am pleasantly surprised if it’s anything but horrible. The best part about dating is that I’ve been getting a lot of free meals and drinks. I really don’t know why it’s so hard to find someone that has an amazing job, a good family, a nice body, is caring and appreciative, has morals, passions, and that really, genuinely likes me. That doesn’t seem like a lot to ask for.