[194] Summer Rain

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At home, rain in the summer is an almost daily experience. Here in Seattle, if it rains in the summer it’s a total downer, but I don’t see it that way. You know when you’re away from something for a while and you forget about it, and then you experience it again and remember how much you love and miss it? That’s how I feel about the way it smells in the spring and summer when it rains. There’s just something so fresh and comforting about that smell. I can’t even accurately describe what it smells like, but you all know what I’m talking about.

– Stephanie

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[192] Would You Rather…

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I came to a realization in the car on my way to work today (music has this weird way of making me think about things I’ve been trying to avoid); when it comes to dating and love, I would rather get rejected or dumped 100 times than have to do it to one person. I just really hate making other people feel like crap.

So naturally, that realization made me realize something else, like most realizations do: I’m ok with getting rejected and dumped because I don’t care if I’m in a relationship or not. I think in my recent dating history the guys I’ve been attracted to are the ones who aren’t looking to get very serious, and subconsciously I put that in the pro column because I don’t want that right now. The guys that have told me that they really like me, and start implying relationshippy things, freak me out, and I want to end things immediately. There hasn’t been anything wrong with them, mostly, except that they want something serious, and I’m all about me right now.

Until recently, I didn’t think that I allowed my last relationship to influence me. Obviously it has, but not necessarily in a bad way. I think I stayed with my ex as long as I did because I was afraid of what would happen if I ended it. Like I said, I don’t like hurting people, and I knew that would hurt him. Now I’m less afraid to end things when I’m not feeling it. I don’t want to drag it out, but I do want to give the guy a reason as to why it’s over and at least try to give him some sort of closure. It would be so much easier if guys could read a girl’s mind.

– Stephanie

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[190] Shadows Make My Tan Look More Impressive

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I’ve been working on my base tan one hour long session at a time to prepare my skin for the scorching North Carolina sun. I feel like I only notice a difference when the light source around me isn’t the strongest. When I sit in the sun, I still look pale. It’s weird. I’m hoping everyone else can notice the difference between my normal skin tone, which is translucent, and my current skin tone which is now closer to sand than to snow. Here’s to coming back from vacation at least two shades darker. Yay skin cancer!

 

– Stephanie

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[189] When I’m In a Car Everyone Else Sucks

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When you’re the one driving the car inevitably you probably hate pedestrians and bicyclists. I know I do. They’re always annoying and honestly I could run them over with my machine made of metal. Obviously, or not so obviously after that last sentence, I wouldn’t actually run someone over on purpose. Being in the Seattle area means that there are a plethora of bikers and pedestrians. I’m probably imagining this next part, but I totally think that these people commuting in a non-detrimental-to-the-environment way have a superiority complex. They think that because they aren’t killing the ozone they can do whatever they want. Wrong. THERE ARE RULES AND THEY SHOULD FOLLOW THEM TOO. Ugh. As you can see, these alternative commuter types irk me. When I get frustrated or impatient I say to myself, just in my head, not out loud because that would be weird, “That could be your father with his gimpy foot and super tight bike shorts pedaling to work because he likes the exercise and not because he’s a tree hugger even though he actually kind of is.”

– Stephanie

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[188] Food Coma

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Since this is a judgement free zone I’m gonna drop a little tidbit on you: I’ve been eating mostly cereal this week.

Why, you might ask? Because I leave for vacation with my family next week and we’re going to be on the beach…and I’m not really feeling the way my bathing suits are fitting…which is not not well…which means tight. So I’ve been eating cereal, and cereal like snacks…and fruit. I get one real meal a day so today for dinner I “indulged” in asparagus spears and two open face veggie burgers with cheddar, sriracha, and guacamole (under 500 calories, btw). SO GOOD. And I purposefully made it look like a face, because I’m awesome like that. AND If I wasn’t already in stretchy pants I’d have to put some on.

 

– Stephanie

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[187] New Music Wednesday

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I’ve been discovering a bunch of new music lately, partly because I’m making new playlists for vacation next week. Since I’m feeling generous, here’s a list of some of my faves:

  1. Plage – Crystal Fighters
  2. Make a New Dance Up – Hey Ocean!
  3. Everybody – V.V. Brown
  4. Believers – American Authors
  5. San Francisco – The Mowgli’s
  6. Shiver Shiver – Walk the Moon
  7. Hang Forever – Ivy Levan
  8. At Home – Crystal Fighters
  9. If I Were a Ship – Hey Ocean!
  10. Flaws – Bastille

Take a listen or two. Let me know if you like any of it! (This may or may not become a recurring theme.)

– Stephanie

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[186] Hearing Silence

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I can’t get enough of this perfect Pacific Northwest weather. I was so excited to eat lunch outside until I remembered I had a meeting. I did finish up my work a little early and left myself with enough time to catch an hour of rays. Usually when I lay out in the sun I’ll put on some music but today I didn’t. I thoroughly enjoys the sounds of nature and planes flying overhead. After my bake in the sun I went for one of my walk/sprints and now I’m just sitting outside relaxing. A girl could get used to this.

 

– Stephanie

 

P.S. I turned away from the leaves, pictured above, for less than a minute to try and take a picture of a spider. When I turned back to the leaves to take more pictures, the sun was no longer hitting them. Snagged that picture at the perfect moment I guess!

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